everything was going perfectly,
just for once,
and then i made a decision,
and all hell broke out.
what to do?
oh what am i going to do?
will i make it?
will i never get past this?
my heart quickens,
as i see my fate before my eyes,
i can sense its not going to go
well, yet it was of my own fault.
hold could i have been so wrong?
usually my instincts a re a lot sharper,
yet, today they were not there,
as if they’ve left me all alone,
to fend for myself,
because of the choices i had
made once before.
now its all tooo too late,
the verdict has been passed,
the tension growing stronger,
the pain sinking deeper as though
a thousand needles were being forced into my skin.
my heart only beating out so loud, oh god can u hear me?
i thought. yet no answer.
i have to try and fend for myself.
yet to no prevail.
i just have to wait..
and wait for the torture to begin again..
except it will be magnified to the extreme now,
my sense feeling all worn and torn out,
i close my eyes hoping all would solve itself.